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About Betsy

Growing up, I was a nature- animal- and horse-loving, artistic, “good kid.”
Of the three, the good kid took the driver’s seat early on.

I was a good girl, the healthy one,the little adult, the [conventionally] smart one, the reliable helper, the easy one from age 6, on.

Layers and nuance were added to that as I matured and learned more: subservience to any authority (including all men,) being completely unable to accept my body and it’s urges/desires, and putting literally everyone else before myself.

My personality as an introverted perfectionist made me so very good at these things.

After a time, the nature, animals, horses and art were subsumed by the need to be and have *all the right things.*

I spent about a decade, starting in my early-twenties, more and more desperately searching for my perfect career. The right career, because- as we all know- what we do is supposed to be the be-all and end-all. Happiness, fulfillment, passion, money, and our selling point to all.

I opened my eyes in my early thirties.

I was out of work because of a chronic pain condition. Depressed and Anxiety ridden, which is somewhat like racing through the world in a dense fog.

Unhappily married, cause who can be happy in a relationship built on lies about yourself- never mind the lies I was told.

I was unfulfilled and sick in every way.

And I plummeted. To say I was burnt-out is an understatement. I had been burnt-out when I was looking for “The Career.”

I look back at her with all the compassion in the world. She tried so hard, at everything… it hurt.

But I had learned my lessons oh, so well! I ignored my Self. All of it. My body was just a thing to hate and abuse, then retroactively treat. When medications didn’t alleviate symptoms, I ignored it as well as I could. I didn’t have emotions. Or, at least, I pushed them so far down that I didn’t notice them.

I had also given up all of the things that had enlivened my mind and soul as a child.

Except books.
That was where I found a tiny seed of hope, in one self-help book among many.

Over the years, in fits and starts, I nurtured that seed. And it grew and blossomed into the most glorious woman I couldn’t have ever imagined; trapped in society, as I had been.

What I found was my True Nature. And within that, I got in touch with all my other natures, again. Mother Nature, Human Nature, Animal Nature.

I am wild, casual, uncouth, dirty-minded, love being outside and physically active, love listening to people talk about their passions, and I have made myself free to follow my own path- each time I figure out what it is.

Because it’s a process that never ends. I have a lifetime of training, socialization, enculturation, and repression to overcome, one decision, one thought at a time.
And oh, how incredibly worth it, it is!

Freedom Guide

I’m a Freedom Guide, a little like a nature guide, but the nature we’re exploring is yours, as someone who is living with trauma, stress, and overwhelm as we work your way toward personal freedom.

With your nervous system’s interest and safety in mind, I will guide you to trust your true nature and feel the freedom to walk your own path in life.

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